Wednesday, February 4, 2026

“The Covenant That Met Me in Recovery”

A Personal Expression of my thoughts today concerning a Covenant relationship.



I did not come to Jesus Christ through theology alone.
I came through surrender.

Long before I understood covenants…
I understood desperation.

Addiction has a way of stripping illusion.
It removes the masks.
It exposes the false altars we’ve been kneeling to.

For me, sobriety did not begin as a religious act — it began as survival.

But looking back now, I see something I could not see then:

Recovery was the place where Christ first began making covenant with me.


🔹 Step One — Where Covenant Begins

When I admitted I was powerless…

I thought I was confessing defeat.

In truth, I was opening covenant ground.

Because covenant cannot be made with the self-sufficient.

It is made with the brokenhearted.

Step One was my first honest prayer — even before I had words for God.


🔹 Step Two — Recognizing the Redeemer

When I came to believe a Power greater than myself could restore me…

I did not yet know His name fully.

But He knew mine.

What I called “Higher Power”…

He called invitation.

He was already moving toward me long before I understood I was moving toward Him.

Faith, in recovery, often begins faceless —
but it does not remain that way.

Over time, the One who restores us steps forward from the light.


🔹 Step Three — My First Covenant Act

When I turned my will and life over to God as I understood Him…

That was more than a recovery decision.

It was my first covenant act with Christ — though I did not yet understand the language.

I stopped trying to run my own life.

I stopped sitting on the throne of self.

I surrendered governance.

And covenant always begins there.


🔹 Sobriety as Covenant Living

Sobriety is not merely the absence of alcohol.

It is the presence of alignment.

Every sober day became:

  • An act of trust

  • An act of obedience

  • An act of reliance

In time I realized:

I was not just staying sober…

I was learning to walk with Christ.

Recovery was discipling me — one day at a time.


🔹 Service — The Fruit of Covenant

As sobriety deepened, something else happened.

I began working with others.

Not because I had to…
but because grace demanded expression.

This is covenant fruit:

Freely given → freely shared.

Just as Christ lifts us…
we extend our hand to lift another.

Service became the evidence that covenant was alive within me.


🔹 Discovering His Name

There came a point where my understanding of “Higher Power” became personal.

I began to see:

The One who restored my sanity…
was the same One who carried the cross.

The One who relieved my obsession…
was the same One who broke the chains of death.

My recovery introduced me to His power.

My covenant introduced me to His heart.


🔹 The Altars I Left Behind

Like Abraham leaving idolatry…

I had altars to abandon:

  • Alcohol

  • Control

  • Ego

  • Fear

  • Self-will

Sobriety tore them down.

Covenant replaced them with living worship.


🔹 One Journey — Two Languages

Today I no longer see recovery and covenant as separate paths.

They are one road described in two vocabularies.

Recovery LanguageCovenant Language
PowerlessPoor in spirit
Higher PowerJesus Christ
Turn it overSurrender to God
One day at a timeDaily discipleship
SponsorshipMinistering
Service workCharity

Recovery taught me how to live…

Covenant taught me who I live for.


✨ Closing Reflection

I once thought sobriety was the destination.

Now I see it was the doorway.

Christ met me in the rooms of recovery — not to keep me there, but to walk me into covenant relationship with Him.

I came seeking relief from addiction…

And found redemption of the soul.

What began as:

“I can’t… He can… so let Him…”

Has become:

“I am His… He is mine… and we walk this path together.”


Saturday, January 31, 2026

From Isolation to Zion: Enoch, Recovery, and the Courage to Change

 

Enoch never set out to be a great leader.
When God called him, Enoch felt unqualified—slow of speech, rejected by the people, unsure he had anything to offer. That sounds familiar. Many of us begin recovery the same way: convinced we are too broken, too late, or too flawed to change.

But God doesn’t wait for perfection. He works with willingness.

In the Book of Moses, Enoch is sent to a violent and corrupt people. Instead of condemning them, he invites them to see themselves clearly, to repent, and to turn back toward God. That mirrors recovery’s first honest step—admitting where we are, without excuses, without blame, and without hiding.

Enoch teaches that the Fall is real—but so is redemption. This is one of the great recovery truths. We don’t deny the damage. We don’t rewrite the past. But we also don’t live trapped in it. From the beginning, God prepared a way forward, centered in Christ. Healing was always part of the plan.

As Enoch speaks, something remarkable happens. The people listen. Hearts soften. Behavior changes. They begin to live differently—fairly, compassionately, together. Scripture calls this society Zion: one heart, one mind, no poor among them.

Zion didn’t appear because people became perfect.
It appeared because people became honest, connected, and willing to live for something larger than themselves.

That’s recovery.

In meetings, kitchens, service centers, and quiet conversations, we see the same thing. Isolation gives way to belonging. Shame loosens its grip. We stop living against one another and start standing with one another. No one is left alone. No one is above anyone else. Healing becomes shared work.

Then comes one of the most startling moments in scripture: God weeps.

Enoch sees that God is not distant or indifferent. He weeps because His children suffer. He honors agency, even when it leads to pain, but He never stops loving. For many of us in recovery, this is a turning point—realizing that God is not waiting to punish, but grieving with us and rooting for our return.

Enoch is shown the future: destruction, loss, and yet—hope. Christ will come. Healing will prevail. Zion will return.

Recovery works the same way. We don’t pretend the wreckage didn’t happen. But we trust that the story isn’t finished. One day at a time, something new is built. Slowly, quietly, a different way of living takes root.

Zion isn’t a place we arrive at all at once.
It’s a direction.
It’s a practice.
It’s a people choosing honesty, humility, and love—again and again.

And like Enoch, we discover we were never too weak to begin. We were simply waiting to say yes.

Friday, December 26, 2025

A Recovery Reflection: The Fall, Step 11 and the Long Way Home

 

A Recovery Reflection

The Fall, Step 11, and the Long Way Home

For a long time, I thought of the Fall of Man as found in Genesis as failure.

Not just Adam and Eve—but mine.
The choices that led to addiction.
The relationships that broke.
The years I couldn’t get back.

In recovery, many of us arrive carrying that same weight:
If only I hadn’t…
If I had known better…
If I could undo it…

But scripture — and recovery — quietly teach something different.


The Fall: Not Excuse, But Reality

The Fall wasn’t a license to do harm.
It was an acknowledgment of truth: life involves descent.

In the Garden, innocence was lost — but awareness was gained.
In my own life, sobriety didn’t come because I avoided pain.
It came because I finally faced it.

Addiction didn’t begin as rebellion.
It began as coping.
As self-protection.
As trying to survive with tools that eventually turned against me.

That’s not justification.
It’s honesty.

Recovery begins there.


Step 11: Seeking, Not Escaping

Step 11 asks us to:

“Seek through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God…”

Not to escape the world.
Not to rise above it.
But to see clearly while standing inside it.

That’s the same movement the Fall describes.

We leave simplicity.
We enter complexity.
And instead of being rescued from it, we are invited to learn how to live well within it.

For me, Step 11 didn’t arrive as sudden clarity.
It came quietly — through sitting still when I wanted distraction.
Through listening instead of fixing.
Through allowing God to speak without rushing Him.

Sometimes the only prayer I could manage was honesty.


Knowledge Changes Everything

The Fall brought knowledge — not just of good and evil, but of self.

In recovery, knowledge hurts at first:

  • Seeing patterns

  • Owning motives

  • Recognizing harm done

But without that knowledge, there is no freedom.

Step 11 doesn’t erase the past.
It reframes it.

It teaches that God was present even when I wasn’t aware of Him.
That learning didn’t disqualify me — it prepared me.
That my story, however complicated, could still be used in service.


Redemption Is Not Reversal

Redemption doesn’t send us back to the Garden.

It moves us forward — changed, scarred, wiser, humbler.

I didn’t recover by becoming innocent again.
I recovered by becoming awake.

Awake to motives.
Awake to grace.
Awake to the quiet guidance that comes when I stop trying to manage everything myself.

Step 11 didn’t make life easier.
It made it truer.


A Quiet Truth I Live By Now

The Fall didn’t ruin God’s plan.
Addiction didn’t ruin mine.

Both revealed the need for something deeper than willpower:
a daily, practiced relationship with God.

Not dramatic.
Not constant.
Just real.

Creation gave me life.
The Fall gave me experience.
Recovery — through God’s grace — gave me direction.

And that has been enough to keep walking.

Sunday, November 30, 2025

Three Witnesses, One Redeemer


Isaiah, Nephi, and Joseph Smith Testify of Jesus Christ** 

Dear Reader, 

Across more than two thousand years and three different continents, three prophetic voices—Isaiah in Jerusalem, Nephi in the Americas, and Joseph Smith in the latter days—lift their testimonies in a single, unified declaration: 

Jesus Christ is the promised Messiah, the Savior of the world, the Redeemer of all humanity. 

Though separated by time, culture, and circumstance, their witness forms one grand and harmonious chorus. 

 

Isaiah: The Messiah Foretold 

Centuries before Christ's birth, the prophet Isaiah saw the Redeemer with prophetic clarity. 

He declared: 

  • A virgin shall conceive and bear a son (Isaiah 7:14). 

  • Unto us a child is born… and His name shall be called Mighty God, Prince of Peace (Isaiah 9:6–7). 

  • A Branch shall arise from the stem of Jesse (Isaiah 11). 

  • He was wounded for our transgressions; with His stripes we are healed (Isaiah 53). 

Isaiah’s witness is majestic and poetic. 
He shows us the divine nature of Christ and the suffering He would endure for the salvation of the world. 

 

Nephi: The Messiah Revealed in Vision 

More than 600 years before Christ, on the American continent, the prophet Nephi saw in vision what Isaiah foresaw in prophecy. 

He wrote: 

  • “A Messiah shall come… the Savior of the world.” (1 Nephi 10:4) 

  • He saw Mary, “exceedingly fair,” holding the infant Son of God (1 Nephi 11:13–21). 

  • He saw Jesus teaching, healing, calling disciples, and working miracles. 

  • And he saw His final suffering: 
    “They will scourge Him… smite Him… spit upon Him… nevertheless He suffereth it.” (1 Nephi 19:9) 

Where Isaiah gives us symbols and poetry, 
Nephi gives us scenes—clear, detailed, and overflowing with meaning. 

 

Joseph Smith: The Messiah Revealed in Person 

In the spring of 1820, a young man knelt in a grove of trees and encountered the risen Lord. 

Joseph Smith became a latter-day witness who did not rely on vision alone— 
He saw the Father and the Son. 
He received revelation directly from Jesus Christ. 
He taught with certainty: 

  • Christ is the Only Begotten Son. 

  • Christ is the Mediator and Redeemer. 

  • “Salvation could not come without the mediation of Jesus Christ.” 

  • Ancient prophets “were obedient to the gospel” and looked forward to His atoning sacrifice. 

Joseph restored not only the doctrines of Christ, 
but the clarity and continuity of Christ’s role across all ages. 

 

One Gospel, One Redeemer, Many Witnesses 

What emerges from Isaiah, Nephi, and Joseph Smith is something beautiful: 

The Gospel of Jesus Christ is eternal. 
It did not begin in Bethlehem, nor did it end at Calvary. 
It stretches across dispensations. 

Every prophet points to Him. 
Every covenant centers on Him. 
Every scripture is designed to bring us to Him. 

He is: 

  • The Child promised by Isaiah 

  • The Lamb revealed to Nephi 

  • The Living Christ seen by Joseph Smith 

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And He is the Savior who calls to each of us today. 

 

A Personal Reflection 

When I read these three testimonies together, 
I feel something powerful: 

God has always been guiding His children toward Christ. 
He still is. 
And He will continue to. 

The Atonement is not an isolated event; 
It is the heartbeat of God’s eternal plan. 

 

Closing Thought 

Whether through Isaiah’s poetry, 
Nephi’s visions, 
or Joseph Smith’s revelations, 
we are invited to see, love, and follow the same Lord: 

Jesus Christ, the Redeemer of the world. 

May this united witness strengthen your faith and deepen your devotion to Him who lives, who loves, and who leads His Church today.