A Personal Expression of my thoughts today concerning a Covenant relationship.
I did not come to Jesus Christ through theology alone.
I came through surrender.
Long before I understood covenants…
I understood desperation.
Addiction has a way of stripping illusion.
It removes the masks.
It exposes the false altars we’ve been kneeling to.
For me, sobriety did not begin as a religious act — it began as survival.
But looking back now, I see something I could not see then:
Recovery was the place where Christ first began making covenant with me.
🔹 Step One — Where Covenant Begins
When I admitted I was powerless…
I thought I was confessing defeat.
In truth, I was opening covenant ground.
Because covenant cannot be made with the self-sufficient.
It is made with the brokenhearted.
Step One was my first honest prayer — even before I had words for God.
🔹 Step Two — Recognizing the Redeemer
When I came to believe a Power greater than myself could restore me…
I did not yet know His name fully.
But He knew mine.
What I called “Higher Power”…
He called invitation.
He was already moving toward me long before I understood I was moving toward Him.
Faith, in recovery, often begins faceless —
but it does not remain that way.
Over time, the One who restores us steps forward from the light.
🔹 Step Three — My First Covenant Act
When I turned my will and life over to God as I understood Him…
That was more than a recovery decision.
It was my first covenant act with Christ — though I did not yet understand the language.
I stopped trying to run my own life.
I stopped sitting on the throne of self.
I surrendered governance.
And covenant always begins there.
🔹 Sobriety as Covenant Living
Sobriety is not merely the absence of alcohol.
It is the presence of alignment.
Every sober day became:
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An act of trust
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An act of obedience
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An act of reliance
In time I realized:
I was not just staying sober…
I was learning to walk with Christ.
Recovery was discipling me — one day at a time.
🔹 Service — The Fruit of Covenant
As sobriety deepened, something else happened.
I began working with others.
Not because I had to…
but because grace demanded expression.
This is covenant fruit:
Freely given → freely shared.
Just as Christ lifts us…
we extend our hand to lift another.
Service became the evidence that covenant was alive within me.
🔹 Discovering His Name
There came a point where my understanding of “Higher Power” became personal.
I began to see:
The One who restored my sanity…
was the same One who carried the cross.
The One who relieved my obsession…
was the same One who broke the chains of death.
My recovery introduced me to His power.
My covenant introduced me to His heart.
🔹 The Altars I Left Behind
Like Abraham leaving idolatry…
I had altars to abandon:
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Alcohol
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Control
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Ego
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Fear
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Self-will
Sobriety tore them down.
Covenant replaced them with living worship.
🔹 One Journey — Two Languages
Today I no longer see recovery and covenant as separate paths.
They are one road described in two vocabularies.
| Recovery Language | Covenant Language |
|---|---|
| Powerless | Poor in spirit |
| Higher Power | Jesus Christ |
| Turn it over | Surrender to God |
| One day at a time | Daily discipleship |
| Sponsorship | Ministering |
| Service work | Charity |
Recovery taught me how to live…
Covenant taught me who I live for.
✨ Closing Reflection
I once thought sobriety was the destination.
Now I see it was the doorway.
Christ met me in the rooms of recovery — not to keep me there, but to walk me into covenant relationship with Him.
I came seeking relief from addiction…
And found redemption of the soul.
What began as:
“I can’t… He can… so let Him…”
Has become:
“I am His… He is mine… and we walk this path together.”


