Tuesday, April 28, 2026

Two Thoughts… One Understanding

Dear Reader,

Each day I try to collect my thoughts in quiet reflection.

Most days, this serves me well.
Today… not so much.

I find myself sitting with two readings, and they seem to be asking something of me.


The first comes from As Bill Sees It, a message from Bill Wilson:

“All A.A. progress can be reckoned in terms of just two words: humility and responsibility.
Our whole spiritual development can be accurately measured by our degree of adherence to these magnificent standards.”


The second was sent to me this morning:

“It's this simple: If I never try anything, I never learn anything.
If I never take a risk, I stay where I am.” — Hugh Prather


At first, I struggled to find the common ground between the two.

But as I sat with them, something began to come together.


For the sake of humility and responsibility, I must first acknowledge the views, accomplishments, and prerogatives of others.
In doing so, I begin to accept that each of us carries a piece of what is good and useful in this world.

That simple shift moves me—from a closed mind and a guarded heart—into a place of community and fellowship.

And in that place, differences are not threats.
They become opportunities for understanding.


So where does risk enter into this?

What I have learned—through Alcoholics Anonymous and through a life of faith—is that risk is not recklessness.

It is willingness.

A willingness to stretch beyond what I already know.
A willingness to try a new way of thinking.
A willingness to grow.


The ancient philosopher Socrates suggested that wisdom begins when we recognize what we do not know.

In recovery, that recognition becomes a kind of freedom.

Because once I admit I don’t know everything…
I become teachable.


Scripture speaks to this same truth:

“When ye are humble and full of love… then are ye taught from on high.”
Book of Mormon, Alma 5:28

Humility opens the door.
It allows for correction.
It allows for growth.
It draws me closer to God.


So perhaps this is the understanding that is forming for me today:

When I take responsible risks with a humble heart…
something begins to change.

Not just in me—
but in the way I live with others.


Risk allows me to move beyond the status quo.
Humility helps me set aside pride.
Responsibility connects me back to the world around me.


I don’t know that I have fully resolved these thoughts.

But I do know this—

If I am willing to try…
willing to learn…
and willing to remain teachable…

then I am no longer standing still.

And for today,
that feels like enough.

Saturday, April 25, 2026

Relapse: From Broken Stone to Living Promise

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Dear Reader, 

Have you ever asked why there were two sets of commandments in the Book of Exodus? 

The first were written by God’s own hand—perfect, complete, untouched. 

The second… 
Moses had to carve. 

The difference stays with me. 

Because it feels very much like the journey of relaps in recovery. 

 

There are many in recovery who, like Moses, have broken the first set of promises—the commitment to stay sober. 

Some may even have been given the gift of sobriety without much struggle at first. 

They wanted to be clean and sober… 

Yet, for reasons they could not fully understand, they could not hold onto it. 

I have come to see this as struggling with the first commandment: 
“Thou shalt have no other gods before me.” 

In this case, that “other god” may be a drink… or a drug. 

 

Relapse has a way of doing that. 

It breaks not just the effort— 
but the belief that we can ever recover. 

And yet, the second set of tablets teaches something powerful: 

God loves us too much to leave us in the breaking. 

 

The original tablets may be shattered… 

Yet with our own chisel, we can begin again—carving a renewed path back to recovery. 

It is as if God says: 

“Bring Me the stone. We will write this again.” 

 

That is recovery. 

What was once given in hope 
is now formed through humility. 

With a softened heart, we begin again— 
often stronger than before. 

 

The second set of tablets required something new: 

  • Effort  

  • Willingness  

  • Service  

And so, we start up the mountain again… 
this time carrying our own stone. 

 

Relapse is not the end of our relationship with a Higher Power. 

It can become the foundation upon which a new life is built— 
one deeper and more meaningful than we imagined. 

 

Because now: 

  • You don’t just want sobriety—you work for it  

  • You don’t just receive truth—you practice it  

  • You don’t just believe—you live differently  

 

There is a quiet strength in the second set of tablets. 

They are not weaker because they require effort. 

They are stronger— 
because they are shaped through experience, humility, and return. 

 

If you are struggling today… if you have fallen again… hear this: 

You are not starting over from nothing. 

You are bringing new stone to the mountain. 

And God still writes. 

 

What was once broken can be written again— 
this time, not just on stone… 
but on the heart.